Will you ever really understand
what I feel? Will you ever know what the stories woven into the delicate tangles of scars that sadly decorate the skin of
my pale arms will ever really entail? When the truth is told, will you ever truly believe it? Will you be able to distinguish
the real happiness from the fake? And when it comes down to it, will I ever be able to know all of that for you? I guess you
can read my words and relate. You will interlace your experiences with mine in vague attempt to know what it feels like. You
will tell me stories of your own pain and tell me you've felt the same. I will claim that no one has ever felt this hurt.
Not like I have. I mean, it's hard to comprehend someone, somewhere in the world is experiencing the same things and reacting
in the exact same way. Then something will enter my mind, the words I've read from someone else, words that I could have sworn
were my own. A paragraph that I am so tempted to put my name next to because it is impossible that someone else could ever
write out the things I feel in such a way if they have not been inside me. Then something else will lace my concentration.
Music to which another set of words fit. A song that, once again, seems to depict exactly what I feel. Something that I could
not have written. Something someone else felt at a completely different time about entirely different people, yet is exactly
the same. So maybe, just maybe you will understand...you will know what I feel and what I have felt. You may not be able to
put it into words or even express it...but you will feel something that tells you exactly what it is like. And maybe there
are others, people I shall never even meet, who understand exactly what it is to hurt. And maybe there will be people who
go through so much worse times than I will ever even imagine and they will survive. And because of the slight pain I feel
now, I will be able to tie a string of recognition to their pain and nurse them back to a happy existance. What a person feels
can never be measured. The surface ripples can be felt through words or music, or even a slight expression that flits across
someone's face. Maybe there is someone who will understand, someone who has been through nothing but feels the same. For even
a person who has everything may not be happy. Even if you do not know it, you are not alone. There are people who feel perfect,
people who feel worse...and maybe, somewhere, people who feel exactly the same.- RubyToosday (on bolt)
Occasionally I wished I could
walk through a picture window and have the sharp broken shards slash me to ribbons, so I could finally look like I felt- Elizabeth
Wurtzel "Prozac Nation"
Just like your broken
records, you're broken-Funeral for a Friend
it's not a lie if you can let it sing, let it
bleed, and take the red for what it's worth.-The Used (Let It Bleed)
the cup is not half empty as pessimists say, as
far as he sees nothing's left in the cup-The Used (Poetic Tragedy)
Letting out the
noise inside of me. Every window pane is shattering. Cutting up my words before I speak. This is how it
feels to not believe-Yellowcard (Way Away)
You want it, you need it, and all the answers you're racing to find out, they might outrun you in the end-Yellowcard (For Pete's Sake)
When he finds himself feeling alive yet alone, maybe the best he can get is still out of his
I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself-Fall Out Boy (The Pros and Cons
said she'd rather fix her makeup, than try to fix what's going on-Switchfoot (Gone)
If polaroids and memories can fade away, so can I-New Found Glory (I'd Kill to Fall Asleep)
Depression’s just a sarcastic state of mind-Blink 182 (Romeo & Rebecca)
It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time-Michelle Branch (Goodbye
I give myself three days to feel better or else I swear I'll drive right off a fucking cliff because if I can't learn to make
myself feel better how can I expect anyone else to give a shit?-Bright Eyes
hard to look in the mirror these days when everyone has everything you'd rather be-Saves the Day (Handsome Boy)
painted a picture, now we're drowning in the paint-Incubus (Redefine)
is where I say I’ve had enough, and no one should ever feel that way that I feel now. A walking open wound, a trophy
display of bruises, and I don’t believe that I’m getting any better.-Dashboard Confessional (Saints and Sailors)
had a habit of killing herself, I had a habit of dying-Dashboard Confessional (Hold On)
soon I'll figure out what giving up is all about-The Ataris (Angry Nerd Rock)
She’s got her jaws locked now in a smile but nothing is alright?-Third Eye
Blind (Semi-charmed Kind of Life)
The closer I get to feeling the further that I’m feelin’ from alright.-Something
Corporate (Straw Dog)
These words consume her, but they never set her free.-Something Corporate (Good
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad, The dreams in which I’m
dying, Are the best I’ve ever had-Tears for Fears (Mad World)
Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed.-Brand New
They say you need to pray, if you want to go to heaven. But they don't tell you
what to say when your whole life has gone to Hell.-Brand New
asking is for a little more time, To walk away from his anger and leave the bruises far behind. She won't talk about it...she's made up her mind. But as the
front door shuts behind her she whispers, "give me a sign."-SR-71
Feels the power of the engine as she climbs to 65. Every piston sounds like freedom, every white line says goodbye. She'll find strength in her anger and the truth in his lies. When
the last scar finally fades she'll have a new life-SR-71
I’m talented with reason, I cover all the
angles, I can fail before I ever try.-Dashboard Confessional (Bend and Not Break)
I can bend and not break. Or I can break and take it with a smile.-Dashboard Confessional (Bend and Not Break)
Just bend the pieces till they fit, like they were made for this. But they weren’t made for this. No, they weren’t
made for this.-Dashboard Confessional (Ghost of a Good Thing)
Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has, but man it takes a lonely
one to wish that she had never dreamt at all-Dashboard Confessional (Carve Your Heart Out Yourself)
These cuts are leaving creases. Trace
the scars, to fit the pieces, to tell your story, you don’t need to say a word.-Dashboard Confessional (If You Can’t
Leave It Be Might As Well Make It Bleed)
These heights are dizzying and the climb can kill you long before the fall-Dashboard
Confessional (Several Ways to Die Trying)
Which mask will you wear today, how about the one with the pretty smile, to you
it’s just another day, in a life you haven’t lived for quite a while.-Lifehouse (Just Another Name)
He said Oh I'm going to buy a gun and start a war.
If you can tell me something worth fighting for.-Coldplay (Rush of Blood to the Head)
The truth is you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath I’d
apologize for bleeding on your shirt-Taking Back Sunday
I wish that I could disappear, unzip my skin and leave it here, so I could be no
one again-Staind (Blow Away)
Just know that
I will remember you if living was the hardest part- My Chemical Romance
The space between the tears we cry is the laughter that
keeps us coming back for more. -Dave Matthews Band
IT'S FUNNY -- how hello is always accompanied with goodbye.
IT'S FUNNY -- how good memories can start to make you cry. IT'S FUNNY -- how forever never seems to really last. IT'S FUNNY
-- how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past. IT'S FUNNY -- how friends can just leave you when you`re down. IT'S
FUNNY -- how when you need someone, they're never around. IT'S FUNNY -- how people change and think they're so much better.
IT'S FUNNY -- how many lies can be packed in one " love letter". IT'S FUNNY -- how people can forgive even though they can't
forget. IT'S FUNNY -- how one night can contain so much regret. IT'S FUNNY -- how ironic life turns out to be. but the funniest
part of all.. none of that seems funny to me.
And then I felt sad because I realized that once people
are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it
never fails to surprise you as you grow older and you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn
is going to be, or if it's already happened
There comes a time, she started to realize, when you had
to take care of yourself. When you were suddenly responsible for taking care of your own life. Or maybe, maybe it wasn't sudden.
Maybe...maybe the world had been putting things in her way to show her it was about time for her to take her life in her own
hands instead of nonverbally begging person after person to take care of her. She started to realize how woefully unprepared
she was when she couldn't find his number to tell him she couldn't remember how many pills she'd taken
She got bite marks on her tongue from all the things she never said
I'm a stranger wherever I go because I'm strange to myself. My mind just goes off doing it's own
thing, never consulting me at all about whether it's all right to feel this way or that. I am constantly standing several
feet away from myself, watching as I do or say or feel something that I don't want or don't like at all, and I still can't
stop it.-Elizabeth Wurtzel (Prozac Nation)
I'm the girl who is lost in space, the girl who is disappearing always, forever fading away and
receding farther and farther into the background. Just like the Cheshire cat, someday I will suddenly leave, but the artificial
warmth of my smile, that phony, clownish curve, the kind you see on miserably sad people and villains in Disney movies, will
remain behind as an ironic remnant. I am the girl you see in the photograph from some party someplace or some picnic in the
park, the one who looks so very vibrant and shimmery, but who is in fact soon going to be gone.-Elizabeth Wurtzel (Prozac
What a terrible thing to be pretty when you are sad. Sadness shouldn’t be pretty-Anne Rice
(Sleeping Beauty Trilogy)
Do you know that feeling when you're tired and you feel useless??? You want to look pretty but
you don't want to look in the mirror. You feel like your whole life is ending, but everyone else’s seems like it's just
beginning. You smile so your friends don't think you're sad, but deep down you are. You know that another chapter of your
life is about to start, but you don't feel like turning the page. You cry in the middle of the night even when you don't have
a reason. You feel as if the whole universe has a life but your life is useless. You don't know why you do the things you
do. You call your friends and just sit there without anything to say then you tell them you have to let them go, but you'll
call them back...but you never do. You feel as if everyone has turn their back on you so you just give up. You decide you
don't want to live anymore. It's all too much. Why waste anyone else’s time? Then you fall asleep.-cutegoddess01 (on
You know what the sun looks like? Like he slit his
wrists in a bathtub and the blood is all over the water. And the moon is just
watching. She’s just watching him die.
She must have driven him to it.-Holly Black (Tithe)
Did it surprise you that I am not who you thought I was? Did it surprise you to find that I don’t
exactly stand for what you thought I stood for all along? Did it surprise you to find that I'm not exactly how I played myself
out to be? That the person you thought I was is actually nothing to what I am. Doesn't it amaze you how the most carefree
people who can wear the biggest smile on their face, are the ones who are crying tears of ice alone in their bedroom to cover
every part of their depression. Don't let this change anything. For now you know who I am once the darkness hits and I'm alone
in my room. I can still be the person you and everyone else thought I was. For that is the person I have played to be for
so many years.-forimwatchingyou (on bolt)
It is like I'm stuck on this one emotion, scared it will never go away, and when it does I torture
myself with the thought of it returning.-forimwatchingyou (on bolt)
You can surround yourself to keep warm, but their eyes will always be cold-JesterGesture (on bolt)
She could shut out the whole world, including herself.-Alice Sebold (The Lovely Bones)
I just realized that were all a bunch of actresses and we've fooled everyone
into believing that we're all okay...I’m just waiting for the day when I can convince myself
of that.-Jupiter-girl (on bolt)
I’m lost, and I want so badly to be found. But no one is looking for me...-Jupiter-girl
It's better to burn out than to fade away.-Kurt Cobain
Don't expect me to cry for all the reasons you
had to die.-Kurt Cobain
I'm angry with a lot of things, tons of countless things, but if you asked me what, I couldn't
tell you. It frustrates me. Maybe I should just stop now. You know, like, stop while you're ahead. For me, it's more like,
stop while you're not as far behind as you would be if you stopped later.-Ncolie13 (on bolt)
Someone asked me the other day if my glass was half empty or half full. I
was going to say it's empty, but that's not completely true. My life isn't void and I have my happy moments; but they usually
just seem to disappear, or get worse. So, my glass is cracked. Yes, cracked. It gets filled up with happiness and hope, but
it always ends up escaping my grasp. It always ends up emptying out. It will never be full because it's always leaking. And
one day, it will get thrown away, because no one wants a broken glass. Yeah, that's right. I'm broken.-Ncolie13 (on
She was screaming so loud she lost her voice for days, and no one even noticed.
I guess there comes a point where you just have to stop trying because it hurts too much to hold on
She doesn't reply, apart from the wall that comes up in her eyes
folds into herself, thats the only way to explain it. Like paper, when you place it deep into the fire place and instead of
burning, it simply seems to vanish.
cut our wrists like cheap coupons and say that death was on sale today.
going to smile my best smile, and I’m going to laugh like its going out of style, look into his eyes and pray that he
doesn’t see that learning to live again is killing me
If you broke
my heart in a million pieces, I wouldn't bother to take the time and pick them up, I'd leave them lying there hoping one day
you'd walk by and cut your foot.
she said, "Did you know? My heart's bleeding for you." And he said "Do you mind? You're getting blood on my shoes."
carve your name into this bullet so everyone will know that you were the last thing that went through my head.
be my antidepressant I'd like to try something new. And you'd think by now I would have learned my lesson but I'd still like
to overdose on you.
afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit.
Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're
afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry,
like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is
a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society
destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.
if you were to find a shattered mirror, find all the pieces, all the shards and all the tiny chips, and have whatever skill
and patience it took to put all the broken glass back together so that it was complete once again, the restored mirror would
still be spider webbed with cracks, it would still be useless glued version of its former self, which could show only fragmented
reflections of anyone looking into it. Some things are beyond repair. And that was me.
For in the
face of heartbreak, I look up and realize it is self inflicted.
has no character. It's not like skin. It doesn't show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no pores, no hair, no wrinkles.
It's like a slip cover. It shields and disguises what's beneath. That's why we grow it; we have something to hide.
for some people its always a little easier to appreciate the rainy days instead of the sunny ones
mistakes in the world couldn't measure up to the day I thought I could trust you.
around and looked right at me and said nothing, not even hi. It was as if the months we had spent together, the times I spent
loving him just weren't important, as if they never happened.
And as a
single tear falls from her cheek, she looks to him for comfort, and all he can do is look away.
believe in anything because I once believed in you.
It was my
great fortune to find her, just as it is my own personal hell to have lost her. Somehow I shall carry on living as she expected
I thought my life was coming together, I realized it was just starting to fall apart.
The darkness that surrounds us cannot hurt us. It is the darkness in your own heart that you should fear
You know, the worst part about having to fall asleep when you have a broken heart is having to wake up, because
right when you start to open your eyes you are about to feel happy until you realize your life is terrible and the pain nearly
swallows you whole
Sometimes you sit and you wonder if he can see it in your eyes? If he can tell you still love him; that there’s
nothing you would rather think about than the times he held you in his arms. Can he see the tears? Because they sure are there,
deep down, along with the pain and loneliness that you’re sure no one can see. Sometimes you would give anything to
be able to make him understand
The truth is everyone is going to hurt you. You just have to decide who
is worth the pain
Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile,
and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either. There isn't a way
to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone.
People have stopped being comforting… And being alone never was. At least when you're alone no one constantly asks you
what is wrong and you don’t know the answer. You feel the way you do just BECAUSE. You hope the feeling will pass soon
and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait
This isn't a perfect world, and people do get hurt…You smile when you feel like crying, You act like
you're okay When you're falling apart inside, And you let things go. You move on, because there's nothing else you can do
Trust me... I know what it's like to have one of those peeing your pants type of jokes with your friends and everyone
is crying because they are laughing so hard... and the reason why you're crying is because nothing is funny to you anymore
Sometimes I sit and watch the ink leak from my pen. It comforts me to know something else bleeds the way I
I'm not afraid of the gun in my hand, I'm not afraid of dying, I'm just afraid of the pain it will bring to
see my best friends crying
I'm smiling and laughing with all my friends, then I notice you. As my smile quickly fades, I wonder if you
can really tell what I'm feeling. I wonder if deep down hidden beneath my smiles you can see my broken heart. I wonder if
maybe you're feeling the same way. My thoughts are answered as I watch a tear slide down your cheek, and I feel your pain.
I look away for a second, hoping our love isn't completely lost, and my own eyes blur with tears. I wipe my eyes quickly and
return my gaze to you...And then our eyes met once again
As you walk away, I see the fire in your eyes, and I can hear the laughter in your voice as you watch my heart
break. And I’m frozen. I can’t find the words to tell you that I hate you. I can’t tell you how I wish you
would just leave my life forever. And I can’t tell you how much I hope she hurts you. So instead, I tell you I love
you hoping the fire in you eyes dies down, and the laughter in your voice turns to tears in you eyes, and you turn around
and un-break my heart. Only to realize that wishes often don’t come true, and hearts are more often than not, broke.
And I stand there and watch you walk away
it from someone who’s fallen…it’s a long way down.
You'll never know pain until you look into the eyes of someone you love and they look away
only thing worse than being hated is being ignored. At least when they hate you they treat you like you exist.
Scars are like people, the uglier they are, the deeper they are and the deeper they are the less they seek attention.
Maybe to look at me now, it's hard to tell how battle scarred I have come to you; for the deepest scars are the ones you never
see, only feel. But I have witnessed things that if you are lucky in life, you will only ever imagine.
You can't ignore the things that you wish you never had to hear.
Sometimes it hurts more to smile in front of everyone than to cry all alone
When will people understand that words can cut as sharply as any blade, and that those cuts leave scars upon our souls.
Darkness never really goes away, once you've seen it.
been broken before. I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh.
how laughter looks like crying with no sound and how raindrops taste like tears, without pain.
don't hate you enough to ask you to spend the rest of your life with me.
I want to remember to forget you forgot me.
How can she be truthful when everything she is, is a lie?
I start to think there really is no cure for depression, that happiness is an ongoing battle, and I wonder if it isn't
one I'll have to fight for as long as I live. I wonder if it's worth it.
They say that which does not kill you only makes you stronger, well maybe some of us are sick and tired of being so
When someone you love dies, the problem isn't that a part of you dies too, which it does, but that some part of you
remains alive. Sitting here, opposite his armchair, what hurts me is that I'm still alive. I feel this strange sharp pain
of the living. I don't know how to be anymore
During the day she pushed the loss aside but at night it came back and
she lay awake, weeping and whispering to a ghost
People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and all the pain...we’ll
I’ve tried that. I’ve tried hiding my sorrows, and covering the sadness in smiles...and what I’ve learned
is that when it hurts this much inside, your heart always has a way of showing it, no matter how many masks you wear.
Sometimes all u can do is smile and walk away, hold your tears back and pretend like everything’s okay
I close my eyes, wishing I'm fine...even though I'm not this time
He stabbed me in the back; I can't blame him. I think I handed him the knife...
The rain is turning out to be in perfect sync, now that you're standing next to me talking about her. I just thank
God that you can't differentiate the raindrops from the tears on my face.
always tempting to lose yourself with someone, who's maybe lost themselves.
I know I made a lot of stupid mistakes in my life, but the worst one was thinking the person who hurt me the most wouldn't
hurt me again.
I'm barely living' in my skin. Depression's my only friend and I don't know where I am heading trying' to forget where
You look at me and ask 'what’s wrong?' I smile and say 'nothin' Then I turn around my eyes filled with tears
and I simply whisper 'everything'.